It's Sunday and a day for some serious pondering.
I wanna believe that there is such a thing as karma. I wanna believe that people going thru really tough/horrible times either deserved them or elected to have that experience for some sort of learning they needed so that they can evolve to a higher spiritual level. I wanna believe that there is some sorta logic in this Universe and World. I really wanna believe.
I really couldn't handle the idea that it is just a random FU that some people are getting or a repeated FU that others seem to get.
I do spend a considerable amount of time pondering this concept and probably one of the reasons I work in Karma City. Probably not too many other places where you can work to study karma better than a jail. Many who find themselves in the joint haven't done anything more than what many others have done. When I see my patients, I do delve in, way past what I really just need to know to treat my patients. I want them to teach me. I want to understand. I often want to help them improve their karma.
The other day I was talking to a youngster, who I thought had lots of potential. He was only 17 so I certainly hope there was some potential there. After we talked, I saw some lights come on. One of my nurses, who usually doesn't give a big damn, was standing right outside the door, easedropping. When he left, she told me that she thinks I might have gotten somewhere with this one. I told her I hoped that I've gotten somewhere with more than just this one. I told her that, if I can only make a slight difference in just one in a thousand, it was worth my effort. And maybe I'm paying some dues. Whether I'm paying it forward, sideways or back, I wanna pay my dues. I would hate to be in arrears.
I loved that little movie titled "Paying it Forward". That's the best way to go. This would be such a great world if we would all just "pay it forward". And, as I mentioned a little while back, I heard some psychics say and I've seen for myself, that the turn around time for karma seems to be coming pretty fast these days. Just a little observation. Keep it in mind.